I never think, I just do....bad idea

well... as you all know i am in the dungeon right now! my favorite place on earth! today kip and becky are going out to lunch, so its another day alone down here! today pandora is playing christmas music.... the christmas cheer! we decorated out apartment last week....all christmas! it is wonderful, it makes me happy when i walk into my home!
so yesterday is my day off of work. i usually go to school and do homework... which i did. i had a thought.... my hair is so ugly! i have been wearing it up the past couple weeks because it is at that length...the really awkward one! ya, so i was like i need to cut it! what a great idea!! so i called this place called shep studios.... and they had a spot open for 3... beccca said it was a great idea, so i was pumped because i was just really sick of my hair. (keep in mind i have been trying to grow it out... because i want long hair) becca goes to class at 2 and i take a power nap before i go do work to my hair...2:45 i am up and i get in my car... kinda nervous, but i am going for it. so i walk in and patrick is cutting my hair... i said i hated my bangs and i was trying to grow them out, so dont touch. i also said i didnt want it that short...i just wanted something fun.....so the whold time i am talkin to patrick... we are laughing away... but i feel like i should never talk to the hair dresser anymore when getting hair cuts... because he is having fun talking and chopping away.... and not focusing on my hair..... and i dont say anything... like stop cutting, because i am like new, and i dont know him.... long story short.. he chops it off, and freaking cuts my bangs.... and i am soooooooo mad! i act like i am happy but as soon as i get home i am depressed.... i am butch once again!!! so i take a 4 hour nap to sleep it off.... hoping its a dream, but nope! i wake up and my ugly hair is still there.... sad day! i am staying indoors for the next couple of weeks.... my next hair appointment... extensions. no joke.... and now i am even more sad because i think we have taking family pictures over the holidays.... great hair keri!!
so i think i have come to my senses that i need to not just do....i need to think things throug because i always am mad at myself.... so butch, bangs, and depresses.... what the life! haha